傻瓜

傻瓜

有一个傻瓜，时常让人觉得他耍酷，其实他只是不善言辞。。

有一个傻瓜，他原本有一个感情很要好的妹妹，但最近他俩吵架了。。

有一个傻瓜，这三个星期他被课业搞得没日没夜，所以他暂时把吵架的事搁一边，因为他坚信他和她之间的感情。。j

有一个傻瓜，他相信他忙完课业等到假期找她一切将会回到过去，他相信。。

有一个傻瓜，他为了哄回她特地弄了件信物，里头装了三个贝壳，一个代表他，一个代表她，一个写了道歉的日语。。

有一个傻瓜，单单一件小小的信物他用了一个星期的时间完成，但他为了弄这而错过了买花的时间，因为夜了，不用紧，因为他相信。。

有一个傻瓜，他想给她一个惊喜，他悄悄的去找她，他相信等待已久的时间将到来，是值得的，他相信。。

那个傻瓜，他没想到事情j没他想像中的简单。。

那个傻瓜，他的她不睬他，就连站在楼下她连打声招呼都不愿意。。

那个傻瓜，他彷徨了，他不知所措，他慌了。。

那个傻瓜，他不晓得该怎么办，他也一样的赌气，一样的不理睬她，他很傻。。

那个傻瓜，他没想到事情更糟场面更尴尬，他的她更添生气，更气他。。

那个傻瓜，他更本猜不透她在想什么，到底她需要什么，究竟她为何会那么气，他不知道。。

其实那个傻瓜，他更本不想，他万般的不愿意，他多想回到过去。。

其实那个傻瓜，他知道她受伤了，他知道她很难过。。

其实那个傻瓜，他的她没想到他一句说他演戏其实没关心她，她不知道这句话以经伤了他的心。。

其实那个傻瓜，他的她没想到他会比她更伤，他比她更难过，他心多么难受，她不知道。。

其实那个傻瓜，他没怪她，他没怨她，他没生气她，丝毫都没，但他的她一定不会相信，他没关系，不怪她，因为她有权这样想，也有权这么做。。

其实那个傻瓜，他还是依然很疼她，依然会继续用他以往关心她的方式去包容她，因为他真的很疼她，就算她怎么样他都会支持她，就算他知道很可能不会再发生，但他依然坚持。。

那个傻瓜即将回去继续面对课业压力，继续为他的未来打拼，在人生的历练他也历经比普通人多的风浪，所以他不会难过，因为他相信，。。

那个傻瓜，真的很傻。。

傻瓜，你我都一样。。

This blog I wrote on 7th November 2007, This is my very first blog, I retrieved it to post here cause I'm having lots of "feeling" every time I read it. Till now, the relationship with my sister still same as usual, two days a small quarrel, three a big war, which I can't find a word to describe it, although we use to quarrel all the time, I "sayang" her so much, unlogictable right? I belief she knew it, and I belief that we are actually have a "special space" inside our heart.

Most of the friends and relatives even my colleagues suspected we are couple, cause we are close "in fact we use to quarrel all the time". No matter how I explained, they won't believe, so, I'll just keep quite, cause no point for explanation. They were suspected might have their own reason, cause I always did some funny funny stuffs which only couple will do it. I'm not sure on it, probably they are right. But I do know, we can't be couple, cause we are too know each other, like people normally said that one guy and one girl can't be couple if they are best friend or very close, I think this can be link to fate. In chinese, we call it as I owe she at previous life so I must pay back in current life.

Dear my friends, after quite a long time asking question internally, I have a conclusion.
Yes, I love her. I'll care bout her more than myself, consider her feeling then only my turn, do as best as I can to make her laugh, make her life full of happiness (but we querral all the time), I'm the happiest when she happy, I'm the sadness if she upset, will do every things I could do to fulfill her needs, will care bout her more than myself. I know i confused you all, sometime I confused and lost. But now, she is my beloved sister, there is nobody can replace or reclone. I'm not sure whether she has the same mindset with me.
No matter what is she thinking in her mind, she, still my beloved sister.